Just What I needed.

This weekend was just what I needed, on so many levels. It had been almost 30 days since the last time I saw my husband, and almost two months since I had been in Des Moines. Somewhere in between that time I lost something, obviously my husband temporarily, but along with that I got sucked into my tiny little world of selfishness all over again. It wasn't hard to let happen, I was so consumed with trying to stay busy, and avoid the reality of what life is actually like living 1700 miles away from your spouse that I completely filled my days and nights in efforts to distract and exhaust myself to the point that I could go home and literally fall straight to bed. Every activity was centered on me, me staying busy, me seeing friends, me having fun, me getting to do all of the things I wanted to. Not that any of those things are bad, and I will continue to spend as much time as I can with friends and family these last few weeks, but so much of my time was focused on meeting my needs that instead of making me feel better it at times made me feel worse. I wasn't doing anything to meet the needs of others, because I was too focused on taking care of my own.

Then this weekend happened. Not only did I get to spend 4.5 glorious days with Chris but I was also able to be there first hand to experience the reason why we said yes to leaving everything we know and love behind in the first place. I was reminded of the amazing things we are going to get to do for God's kingdom in that city, reminded that God has called us with a purpose and a plan and I am now, more than ever, ready to hit the ground running. To be the change, to meet the needs, to "act justly, love mercy, and walk humbly."