At least I'm not the only one.

Maybe it's not quite like this but David knows what's up.

Psalm 43:4-5 ... Yeah that's where it's at right now.

This verse, along with about 15 other verses, is written on an index card and sitting in on my desk right now. I keep them there as a 'proactive' way to remind myself that God is who He says He is, and no matter what my life looks like He loves me more than I can ever realize and will always take care of me, especially when I don't deserve it.

Psalm 43 captures almost all of the emotions I'm currently expeirencing, and pretty much in that order.

David:
" For you are God, my only safe haven... Why must I wander around in grief," v.2

Es:
I agree.

David:
"Send out your light and your truth; let them guide me." v.3

Es:
Ready and willing.

David:
"There I will go to the altar of God, to God—the source of all my joy." v.4

Es:
The source of ALL my joy.

and then it all clicks...

David:
"Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again— my Savior and my God!"

There is no need to be discouraged, there is no need for my heart to be sad. I will put my hope in God, and praise Him- my Savior.

God has proven His love for me over and over again, and I will praise Him in advance for what He is currently preparing for us.